hello livejournal!

sorry i haven't been writing much. been busy. lots going on, all of it good.

work
job is awesome, i feel like i am learning a lot. re-adjusting to daytime pace is a challenge. 5 day work weeks are le gay. (but not the good kind like you want). it's nice being around people, talking to people other than paul is kinda cool, and also getting to see the occasional moment of sunshine is sweet.

cats
thrash is going home today. i have decided i like having two cats, and will be adopting another kitteh soon! though NO MORE LONG HAIRS. because it was too freakin hairy in there ALL THE TIME. simon continues to be awesome, and today when he logged into facebook, had four friend requests. yes thats right, people initiated on their own. haha.

exercise
i need to go back to yoga, but don't want to pay for it. need to get my snowboarding stuff from chad taylor, because im aiming to go to WHISTLER this weekend!!!! work peeps demanding my presence. cay and i went seaballing last week, it was COLD. but awesome. i'm still biking to work every day in the pouring rain. thank jebus for rubber pants

boys
are most awesome in far away theoretical situations. in reality? hard to say, but we shall see. ^__^

home time
is now. bye bye.

serraboten is a solar and snuggle powered cyborg. without sun or snuggles i rely on nrg drank and relentless wishful thinking, and an energy reserve occasionally recharged by my own sense of satisfaction from friends who inspire me and a cat who gives great tummy facials, to get me through the days.

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there's other people here during the day. so conversations don't usually stray so far from the norm as they do on nights. also perhas because we get exposure to other people, as well as sunlight, we aren't as crazy? who knows. these i wrote down a couple weeks ago.


how should i start this email... *witty intro*???
only douches would say that
heeeeey
just kidding. i just said that to hurt your feelings.
you're a douche!
i never said i wasn't. yup. actually, i'm secretly a hipster
you wish
yeeeah. i know.
you're too douchy to be a hipster!
heeey !!
just kidding. i just said that to hurt your feelings.



so if i end up going fishing this week, should i bring a knife?
why, so you'll be prepared when your friend tries to murder you?
*shifty eyes* ...nooooo
yeah whatever, i know you better than that. yes i think it's reasonable to defend yourself from your fear of being murdered in the middle of a lake. plus what about ogopogo?

there is this giant glowing ORB in the sky, and i fear for my life. it's burning the back of my head, and making it hard to read the monitor. how am i going to maintain my ghostly green techno vampire tan at this rate? does not compute does not computer does not compute error error error

today i woke up a 6AM. did yoga, cooked breakfast, made salad for lunch and then studied for 20 minutes before getting to work for 8am. morning was miraculously easy to process, as usually all i hear is the sound of babies screaming for the first hour i am awake. perhaps a benefit of technovampirism / having your REM cycle / brain chemical get punched in the face for two months is the loss of prejudice against time? what i mean is, my body currently has no idea what time it is, ever, so maybe it doesn't know when its 6am and subsequently isn't sure if it should protest wakefulness based on time of day alone. hopefully this continues, and i won't have to complain about the horrors of a 8-4 workday.

also, i can't believe it's home time in 15 mintues. what? seriously feels like i just got here.

also serra: STOP BEING SUCH A SLACKER AND START STUDYING AGAIN. going to the cafe after work tonight. yup

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me: so have you ever used IRC paul? 
paul: no
me: me neither. i feel like i'm missing out on a big part of my like... nerd heritage. i just never used it, no reason to i guess.
paul: yeah... you know. i don't know if i really even qualify as a nerd, i mean, i don't fufill a lot of those requirements
me: .....

dude, you have a degree in computer science and you like comic books.

paul: .......

yeah ok. thanks for that little slap of reality.  you also should've mentioned the 'network analyst' part.
me: ALSO you are a network analyst

bahaa

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oh twitterscope, you crack me up.

today:
It's challenging for you because you have so much positive energy today, yet it may be inappropriate to overwhelm others with your exuberance. Self-restraint is your key to a successful week and you might as well begin now. Don't be so eager to cross the finish line; you've barely started the race. Think cosmically, but act locally.

asdjahsdjkashhahahaha

quote of the day:
" **HEAVY BREATHING SOUNDS**"

[questionable looks]

..... the nerdy way... not the sexy way!

sooo i am attemping to study but of course instead i am writing. i've decided i'm going to try and write my CCNA before new years. its a somewhat lofty goal but if i actually apply myself it is conceivable that i may accomplish it..... that is if i can stay focussed. stupid internets... stop being so distracting.



.... feeling weird this week. i think the cloudy days are starting to affect me a bit, i want to try and find one of those fake sunshine lights that will trick my brain into thinking it gets enough sunlight. probably a good investment because we've really only had a handful of dreary days so far, and there's plenty more to come. i've been overthinking a lot about last year's breakup and the consensus is i still feel like a selfish asshole about how things went down. i really wish things hadn't ended the way they did.. but i did the only thing i was able to. not trying to justify my actions nor will i ask for forgiveness because i dont think i deserve it, but i hope he knows... i think he deserved better. and i still think about him and everything that happened. and have yet to meet anyone, or even get myself to a place where i could even consider really getting involved with, well, anyone again. i think the situation we created for ourselves ended up bringing out the worst in both of us, in a lot of ways. we've been building something of a friendship and for that i'm glad. he's got a new girlfriend and i wish them the best. mostly i just hope he's happy.

this week we got the 'downtown business olympic readiness guide' aka 'your life is going to be hell for the olympics and here's a big list of reasons why'. so here's a map from within: i've taken the liberty to highlight my place of work.



all i can say is i'm glad i'm a cyclist!! 

also, throughout the "business readiness guide" they repeatedly suggest that downtown business owners "clean up and open your restrooms to the public" as there's .... not really going to be any extra bathrooms installed downtown. yeah. gross. cuz it doesn't already smell like pee downtown

gonna be an interesting couple weeks.

I HAS IT

nothing streaming....... yet. but there will be. oh yes.

i'm thinking about winnipeg today... not sure why. sad i didnt get to spend more time there this summer. i have half a mind to go visit some time this winter... just to remind myself of what winter is actually like, perhaps?

fun fact: google image search "one great city" and i'm on the first page of results! hilarious.

but here's a picture that impressed me! did you hear they have the internet on computers now?

My best friend is one of violinists tonight playing for Taylor SwiftTV Relationships = SuicideI need to shake this migrainefollow back standardsFiestaRain : Plus we've been having some serious Thunder http#//realcheapsex.com Pickin' and grinnin' with harmonies and jammin'

sooo i found this on my way to work today at the "crazy convenience store" i always go to over on pender. i love that place, it always has the weirdest drank. the can says "GET A BUZZ WITHOUT THE FUZZ". it's full of caffiene, so definitly not a downer like i assumed it would be..... so i bought a can because i'm an idiot - it's GROSS. ewewewewew. like redbull only.... worse. way worse. so gross. eughh

but i guess that's what i get for buying something called DANK. but i thought since it rhymes with DRANK and is purple, it would taste like PURPLE DRANK. which in my mind tastes like dymatap, which is yummy.

anyway. i uploaded a bunch of my doodles to an album on facecrack.... they're kinda amusing. i'm slowly going through all my old notebooks and digitizing all the rendering i've done over the years. too bad i never apply myself fully to drawing or painting... i think there's potential for awesome there that i never really cultivated. oh well.



it's officially "fall" here now, which basically means i live inside a cloud for the next four months. fall (and most of winter) here is... surreal. i kind of like it. what's also nice is coming home just as it's getting light out, while everyone is trundling off to another day under gray skies, and instead curling up in bed with a book and going to sleep.

blabla what else? halloween costuming is in full force now, cayley_jane and i are dressing up as.... haha as if i'm telling. but it's awesome. still not 100% sure where i will be partying, but i am thinking the lotus is a pretty likely candidate. seems to have a wicked lineup as well as a large ratio of my friends will be there... when there's enough of us makes the creepers a lot easier to deal with.

oh yeah and that's another thing i wanted to mention. my peer group just keeps getting more and more awesome!! spending more time with people like kimlett makes life even awesomer.... and it also makes it okay to use words like awesomer. so shut up! we get sharky and make shit and play nintendo and masturbate to crazy clothes on the internet. it's pretty much great.

boys are still dumb. and cute. and frustrating. RETARDED PUPPIES. can't help but love them. had some epic discussion with one of them the other day, i hope things are okay inside his little head, but whatever we may have had going on is definitely for sure 100% over. hope he finds the one he's looking for, and that we can continue to be awesome friends and not have it be weird. i dont think it will be buuuuuuut never under estimate the powers of awkwardness. but i just ignore the awkwarness and find that is actually the one emotion where ignoring it seems to make it go away sooner rather than later. meh.

sometimes i wonder if i will ever fall head over heels stupid in love again. i hope so.

until then at least i have the internet and awesome girlfriends.

its fall now... i've spent my week off biking, making music, crafting and snuggled watching cartoons with rad friends. working on a sweet halloween costume.. decorated my apartment more.. played another game of dodgeball and we didn't lose so much this week...

having a lot of fun with this drum machine!! really wish someone had given me one of these like 10 years ago...... its pretty much exactly what i want. right now everything i write sounds like shit, but i am not letting it concern me. i'm re-training my ears to hear, and regaining a lot of musical confidence that i didn't even realize i had lost! i know the more i practice, the better i will be so i try to spend some time fucking around with it every day. and funny enough, i have a surprizingly easy time engaging with this thing... so many things i want to but have a lot of trouble staying focussed. stupid ADD brain. so it's a real treat to actually be able to sit and lose myself for hours at a time making terrible music.  

tomorrow i think i go see where the wild things are at midnight. and maybe seaballing before hand if we can cross fingers and get a sunny day? k gtg

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg I AM GONNA FREEZE IN HERE THIS WINTER stupid data center and your need for over zealous cooling!!!!!!!!